August is nearly coming to an end. September is just around the corner. Even so, my blog has not been very active. I apologize for that. I know it is not a good start for me as a beauty blogger. I haven't been doing what I said I would. I do make drafts of blog posts, yes. However, I never really have the time and/or inspiration to complete them. So, here I am, left with a folder filled with a bunch of blog entry drafts and photos of hauls, tutorials, FOTDs, and whatnot. Indeed, I haven't been managing my time efficiently.
The past few months have been rather harsh on me. Being in my senior year means that I have a lot of things to do. There are exams to pass, requirements to deal with, stress to cope with, and simply, an endless list of problems. Being a Captain of my school's Debate Society isn't really helping me attend to these responsibilities. Then, there's college to worry about. Since I'll be taking BA Digital Graphic Design AND Cosmetology, it will be essential for me to learn to manage my schedule wisely. Also, if I want to succeed as a makeup artist, I'm going to need as much views as I can get in this blog. Basically, a truckload of stress has been dumped on me and quite frankly, I'm not sure how to remain in a stable state. Things are just not going the way I want them to.
Earlier, I was filming a makeup transformation video from tomboyish to feminine and girly. I was nearly done when suddenly, my camera bailed on me and the 25 minutes of footage was lost. I was just so frustrated and disappointed, I just wanted to smash something. Then again, that really isn't going to help me, so, I just took some photos of myself using my MacBook Pro's Photobooth feature.
My little misfortune made me think things through. Indeed, things are pretty messy lately. I've been having plenty of downs as of recent, a lot more than my ups. Knowing myself, I would have expected myself to have a breakdown of some sort. The failed video was the last straw for me. Everything keeps messing up. However, surprisingly, I'm sitting here, calmly typing this entry. I'm rather teary-eyed, I must say (because I'm hella sleepy T^T). Anyway, basically, I'm not reacting the same way I normally do. Is this it? A further sign of maturity? I mean, I have always been the earliest kid in class to "grow up". Has my not-so-recent birthday finally shown its perks? Is this my new achievement? [Achievement Unlocked: Obtained further maturity!] I must say, I am rather pleased with myself for this.
Anyway, basically, I have come to the realization that all the stress has driven me to reinforce my maturity. What doesn't kill me makes me stronger. The more pressure I am put through, the better, because I can toughen up to become a diamond. (Too quote-y? Sorry. I'm feeling inspired AND sleepy at the same time. :P) All I am trying to say is that, to all those people who are going through a rough part in life, just hang in there. It'll all be better soon and you will be on your way to a smoother ride. Just keep your cool and try to divert your attention from all the negative aspects of your life. Try as much as possible to keep a positive outlook. [Believe me, I do not intent to come across as a preacher. I am probably one of the most pessimistic people you will ever have the displeasure of meeting.] Just don't swell on thinking about the bad stuff, and you should be alright.
Before I forget, here is the look that I was going for. I know it's not what you would call "wearable", but I'm just really excited for the 'ber months, and usually, during this time of the year, you can literally get away with crazy colours and stuff.
So, here are some photos:
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| Full face of makeup is already done. The camera and lighting is not doing the colours any justice. :( Products Used FACE Collection Lasting Perfection Ultimate Wear Concealer in 03 Medium (This is actually too dark for me, but I still made it work by setting it with a lighter coloured powder) Aido Cream Powder in 01 (lightest powder I own, I used this to set my under eye concealer) Fashion 21 Loose Powder in #1 (Again, this is too dark for me, but I applied it sheerly.) San San Single Eyeshadow in Deep Earth Brown (for contouring) Shawill Collagen Rosy Touch Blusher in 005 EYES ELF Eyelid Primer James Cooper Jazzy Eyeshadows (I forgot the shade numbers, but basically, on the left, I used matte green, matte black, and gold; while on the other eye, I used matte black, silver, and this sort of burgundy-cranberry matte shade) Essence Long Lasting Eye Pencil in 01 Black Fever Aido Classic Liquid Eyeliner Ever Bilena Thick Lash Mascara (I still haven't gotten myself a decent mascara :( ) EYEBROWS San San Kohl Pencil in Black (I used black for my brows because I couldn't find the sharpener to sharpen my brown brow pencils.) Ever Bilena Colorless Mascara (used as a brow gel) LIPS Pinkies Collection Lipgloss in 03 Mauve Tools used FACE Generic makeup sponge Generic kabuki brush ELF Studio Blush Brush EYES ELF Eyeshadow C Brush Artist Studio Dual-ended brush (angled brush on one side and a pencil brush on the other) Essence Smokey Eyes Brush San San Eyelash Curler |
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| The hat/cap/whatever you call it is from SM Department Store (men's accessories section) Blonde wig was bought from a friend who does cosplay (Hi, Nicole! :D Although, she isn't an active blogger anymore, I'll still leave you the link to her blog: http://kionezhialeron.blogspot.com/ ) The coat was a present, so I don't really know where it was purchased from. :( For the glasses, yes, they do have graded lenses. For those who were wondering, those are Levi's (brand) :) |
